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Class in 30... minutes. [06 Feb 2007|08:28am] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | TV on the Radio - Wolf Like Me ] The only thing i can think about anymore is April 4-11. That is the first week of the rest of my life. 2 comments|post comment

I never believed in magic until i saw you disapear. [14 Sep 2006|10:31am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | The Divine Comedy - To Die a Virgin ] You know who makes good music? Gnarls Barkley The song writting is awesome and the music fits with the words and it's all unique and everything fits together in a super two to five minute composition of unity. I'm sure everyone in the world has heard crazy. Thier hit that plays all over the radio and television (along with everywhere between the two). Buuuuuut, if you haven't heard "Smily Faces" or "Basically" maybe you should get your laptop and sit on those stairs towards HardTimes. Then connect to HaRdTiMeS (the network server). Get on some downloading device and get those songs... cause. They're super good songs. But all in all... You dont have to do anything. You could just take my word for it and i'll show them to you during my next visit. Or, if your Chelsea... I could just show them to you next time i see you. Cause we dont live by a Hardtimes Cafe. I'm at school again. I'm going to miss French so i can write an essay i gotta get done so i can be caught up in English. Whereas all the French junk is due October 3rd. I gots me some time. I gots me plenty of time. I also gots me some Sociology today... That only happens once a week. It's an event. I dont understand what were supposed to do in that class. So far we just listen to some stories... analyze them, then go on to our next class. No word of a test or... of an assignment. Or of anything. I'm definatly not missing something... I've only been thier everyday, or every thursday rather. I sure hope i can find something fun to do soon. Prehaps i should go talk to people. 1 comment|post comment

The horribleness of it cant be contained in the horrible scale of horrible things. [13 Sep 2006|10:24am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Bjork - Army of Me ] I cant transfer to Minnesota for the Spring semester. They would require my shit be in by October 12th. My grades at MATC wont be posted until late October early December. Obviously they need those so they can tell if i'm good enough for thier school. I should just take the spring off. haha. I had such a weird dream last night. My uncle Steve drove up from Arkansas and when he got here he told me story about his trip up... Here it is: "On they way up i ran into your step brother in Indiana. He was standing in the middle of a corn feild looking up. I asked him what he was doing out here... He didn't reply right away... He just pointed to the sky. Just then a crop duster flew overhead. Like, right overhead. He brought his head down and said 'It's for the Beast, it's all for him.' I laughed and walked away. Brad, those Indiana kids are trippin'." mmhm... my uncle doesn't even know that kid. Which is kinda funny. 1 comment|post comment

Hah. [25 Aug 2006|02:44pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | none ] I'll be home in 2 days. I expect a supise party. nah... i'm kiding. 1 comment|post comment

heres how it is. [22 Aug 2006|04:27pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Family ] I miss my girl. (you know who you are) I miss my friends. (you know who you are) I miss my cats. (I know who they are) I'd like to see all of them right now. post comment

I understand [14 Aug 2006|02:18am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Wilco - Muzzle of Bees ] With summer coming to a close i realize how fast everything is these days. I remember when i was a small boy and summer seemed like forever. School would let out and i'd have the feeling that i would never have to go back again. Obviously that isn't the case. But now it seems like we have the ability to blink away four years. Eventually, i wont have the summer to enjoy anymore. Well... I can hope that i'll have the summer to enjoy. Thats besides the point. I just blinked away four years. 2 comments|post comment

Now if i can get a job and start school sucsessfully... [13 Aug 2006|12:53am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | none ] Now if i can get a job and start school sucsessfully... ... everyhting would be perfect. (i cant wait to see katie) 1 comment|post comment

[02 Aug 2006|09:45pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | The Carinals Game. ] Who are we talking to when we blog? People make blogs abour thier friends. But, when in reality... the friends are the ones who read the blog, so my question is this: Who are we talking to when we blog? Psychologically speaking... prehaps we all have hypothetical "imaginary" friends. 3 comments|post comment

Mmmhm. [02 Aug 2006|12:08am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Muse - Thoughts of a Dying Atheist ] I dont know why i always have to be afraid of myself. Prehaps sometime i should actually go with my intuition and stop moping around all the time; get up and do something about it. Sometimes i think things will work themselves out. Really important things i shouldn't set aside, but i do. Not just because i forget, but because i fear confrontation and lack motivation. These past two or three weeks have been really bad for me. I haven't felt like this since freshman year. I'm smart enough to know not to inflict pain on myself. (unlike freshman year) but i know i'm not happy. Not happy in ways similar to freshman year. (insomnia x10) I dont know why i keep refering to freshman year. Freshman year has nothing to do with how i feel. I should just forget about it. I should really just forget about it. My friends are here for me... i lacked that during the 9th grade. but sometimes i feel i dont deserve my friends. i feel like a parisite. 1 comment|post comment

yes. Rest in Peace, myspace. [10 Jul 2006|11:26am] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Polyphonic Spree - It's the Sun ] I deleted my myspace yesterday night. There was really no thinking about it either. It asks you about 8 times if your sure. Not one of the cancelation buttons was harder to hit than the other. I had a few reasons. One - People were getting my password and messing with my preferences. Two - It was getting weird. (myspace as a whole) Three - I feel i met the right people out of it. Four - I should dedicate my time to doing something cooler with the internet. I feel a website coming on. or more YouTube. thats it. 1 comment|post comment

Agnostic. [18 Jun 2006|12:49am] [ mood | good ] [ music | 4 Fans... pointed at me. ] You know how sometimes you find out something new about yourself? That just happend to me. I just realized that i am: Agnostic. 1. One who believes that it is impossible to know whether there is a God. 2. One who is skeptical about the existence of God but does not profess true atheism. That pretty much hits the nail on the head for me. In other news. I got to hang out with some cool kids today... then some not so cool kids. It was exciting. I still suck at basketball. aanndd. now i will sleep. and i totally dig a girl... 1 comment|post comment

Alright guys. Heres how it is. [14 Jun 2006|12:04am] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | Calexico - Alone Again ] I'm the kind of person that spends all of his time thinking about the things he could do, but doesn't. This became aparent when i found myself thinking about how i could just open the door and hop out of a car while going 65mph south on 43 to Millwaukee. Obviously i wouldn't do that, but it's the fact that there is nothing their to stop me from doing so. That intices me. I could scream profanities in a crowd of people and claim turrets. People would understand my problem and have to live with it. The fact that they wouldn't know i was lying about my having turrets intices me. Again... i definatly wouldn't consider doing that... unless it was for a documentary. I have a pretty messed up imagination. My mind is always somewhere weird. Sometimes people think i'm upset about something, but really... i'm usually just thinking about some messed up scenario. A lot of the time it's about something i have to face in the future. College stuff for example, is a big one lately (obviously). Girl stuff. Job stuff. Driving stuff. Friend stuff. Film stuff. Guitar stuff. Writting stuff. Money stuff. It's all there. It's not that i feel anxious about any of it. I just find myself thinking about it all... a lot. and sometimes all at once. I certainly dont see this as a problem either. I'm pretty sure everyone who ever existed has gone through the same situation consistantly. I just enjoy writting about it. It's actually really interesting to think about thinking about all that stuff. I promise, my fellow friends, i'm not high. Just very content and observant. I leave with a quote... and some links. Cause i like tornados. Imagination is the living power and prime agent of all human perception. -Samuel Taylor Coleridge. 2 comments|post comment

My long (fun) weekend. [12 Jun 2006|12:13pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Foo Fighters - In Your Honour ] Friday. Katie got into town. Saturday. Katie and I started hanging out at the very beginning of saturday. Which would be midnight. You know how all that day stuff works. Well, we went to Evan's to see if we could sneak him out of his house to go get some coffee with us at Node. We were extremly unsuccsessful on getting Evan out of his house. Actually... we didn't even really try, we just ran away when we saw his dad in the kitchen. After the failed attempt we decided to go to Node anyway. We showed up at about 1am. There were probably inbetween 20 and 30 people there. We found a seat and drank some coffee and played 3 matches of chess. I got my ass kicked 3 times. We finished our third match, that put us at about 3:30am. We decided to go home ... prolly for the better. I didn't want my mom to wake up and worry. Got home at 4 and slept until 8. I got online at 11 to Evan asking me if i wanted to go out for breakfest with Katie and himself. I agreed, so we went to george webbs. Ate some food, left. After that we got together with the wonderful wonderful Chelsey Hollander. I believe we hung out at Katie's then. I think. Well... my memory draws a blank, so we'll skip to saturday night. We filmed our Yeah Yeah Yeah's music video. Then we watched Unerworld 2. Then fell asleep at 3 or 2. Sunday. Got up at about 8 cause Chelsey had to go to work and Evan had to go worship god. We called Chelsey in sick. yay! Anyway... Evan left. Then Katie and Chelsey and i debated breakfest, so we went to the store and bought some stuff. I made bacon and eggs and Katie made hashbrowns... throw some cinnamon rolls and muffins in their and you have a helluva breakfest. Luckily Evan got back in time to eat it with us. It was all fun. I had to be home at noon, so i did that. Evan and Chelsey and Katie were gonna go to the graduation ceremony, so they did that. and I was gonna go to Locust Street Days with meh moma, so i did that. It was cool. Alot of neat stuff for sale. Music. Pot. haha... *sigh* We got back at 3pm and i was exausted, but instead of napping i called Evan and Katie and Chelsey. Cause thats better than sleeping. We went to Evan's, ate some dinner and cake. Then at 7 we went to Sarah's graduation party. Her being my ex-girlfriend of 3 years... it was as depressing as i thought it would be. Her family is super and i miss it a bit, but thats natural, yeah? Anyway... after that we ended up at a park with a bunch of 7 year olds. That was weird. Then we dropped Chelsey off at home at 10pm, cause she had to work the next morning. Then Evan and Katie and I went to Node !!So, our origonal mission had become succsessul just a day late. Monday. The very first parts of our monday were spent at node. Cause thats where we were when it hit midnight, yeah? We met this super girl, sam. She was intelligent and funny and polite and easy to talk to. We played scatagories. Then sat around, then went for a walk... then we left node at 3:30am. We got home at 4am to watch the sunrise, so we did. and it was pretty. Then i got home at 5:30am and slept until 9am. This will be considered the end of the weekend... cause Katie had to go back to Minn. It was fun. a total of 12 hours of sleep, over three nights. and i feel fine. 2 comments|post comment

The fear i feel when i walk through the nature preserve at night. [09 Jun 2006|10:32am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Cheated Hearts ] Last night i walked through the nature preserve at one-thirty in the morning and that shit is scary. It was a realitivly clear night so their was no city light reflecting off the clouds or anyhting like that. All the light i had was the moon, which didn't help out very much. I seriously felt like i had to guess where i was everytime i made a turn. I guess it's good that i'm familiar with the nature preserve, cause if it was my first time in there or something... i'd be lost until sunrise. I do think it's best for my health that i not do that anymore though. I made the fourth turn to the right past that one tree with the big leaves and i heard a pack of cyotes. I have confidence in my speed, but i dont think i could out-run cyotes. Given the moment, i definatly wasn't thinking about attempting to out-run them either... i was thinking about how it would feel to be served as dinner. So i just kept walking, maybe a bit slower this time. I eventually found my way out of the nature preserve... then i took a big sigh. post comment

Done. [08 Jun 2006|01:50pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Calexico - Yours and Mine ] This means. I'm done with High School. 2 comments|post comment

It's been a while, Dead Journal. [07 Jun 2006|04:50pm] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | Jimmy Eat World - She's Perfect ] Well. I used to have one of these thingies, but i dumped it long ago. I guess i felt complelled to re-construct a Dead Journal because i like the idea of spending less time at myspace and more time somewhere else. I also feel that blogging was a pretty good idea. The oppritunity to see how your friends, or people you dont even know, think and react to events happening around the world... or events you dont even know about. Which would be considered local. I guess i like that idea more than "whoring" someone you dont even know anything about to your one million plus friends that you cant even name. I complain about myspace... yet i'm an avid user. I suppose then this blog spot gives me the oppritunity to leave all of that junk behind once in a while. I'll admit. I do like myspace for the artist's pages. Myspace music and Myspace videos is a great networking idea... myspace pre-teens... not a good idea. It will only get worse... Myspace signed a contract with FOX. The contents are unknown at this point, but i smell shit in the air. 2 comments|post comment

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