Mmmhm.
I dont know why i always have to be afraid of myself.
Prehaps sometime i should actually go with my intuition and stop moping around all the time; get up and do something about it. Sometimes i think things will work themselves out. Really important things i shouldn't set aside, but i do. Not just because i forget, but because i fear confrontation and lack motivation.

These past two or three weeks have been really bad for me.
I haven't felt like this since freshman year.
I'm smart enough to know not to inflict pain on myself. (unlike freshman year)
but i know i'm not happy. Not happy in ways similar to freshman year. (insomnia x10)
I dont know why i keep refering to freshman year.
Freshman year has nothing to do with how i feel.
I should just forget about it.
I should really just forget about it.

My friends are here for me... i lacked that during the 9th grade.
but sometimes i feel i dont deserve my friends. i feel like a parisite.